Sanities Rebirth

I am the very proud owner of Ironman pyjamas. That is all.

What do you want
From your time here?
Are you pleased to leave
After inflicting fear?

Why do you always try
To make others feel shit
Do you want that remembered
As your biggest hit?

When people speak of you
What do you want said?
Do you want people to say
That they wish you were dead?

Do you even know
The damage you’ve done?
Or was it all
Just harmless fun?

Did you know
That there’s blood on your hands?
Or did you think those fresh scars
Were just red wrist bands?

When I open my eyes
I always see hate
And I always wonder
Is this really our fate?

Is kindness so hard?
Must there always be pain?
I’m asking you now
What is it you gain?

I can spit venom too
And yet I do not
I try to make people smile
You should give it a shot

There is enough pain
Without you inflicting more
Why can’t you share a smile
It’s not really a chore

This life is yours
To do with as you will
But why make someones life
A painful battle uphill

A lie draped in shadow
A tongue in cheek joke
A story’s anti-hero
Donning a cloak

The untold truth
The world has hidden
The old fae tale
That is forbidden

An apple of sorts
An unattainable idea
An endless pursuit
The end is not near

You know you suffer
You know its not found
You know you can rest
When you lay in the ground

What more is there for you to take?
Didn’t you see me suffer enough
As you watched my little heart break

I’m sure you don’t even know
That you still cause me pain
Then again no one really does
I can’t afford to seem insane

I am trying my best
and for once I’m succeeding
I found myself a nurse
and she’s staunching my bleeding

It has been quite a long time
But I think I’m beginning to feel
At the very least I know
My wounds are starting to heal

I am going to the midnight opening screening of The Avengers movie and I am going in Ironman pyjamas!

“Time is an illusion. Lunchtime doubly so.”

and with that I’m getting lunch… at 9:26AM

You’re still making me smile even now. I think I’m happy again :) and it’s all because of you.

You always make me smile
I’m not entirely sure how
Butterflies fill my stomach
Just like they do now

It could be something simple
As simple as your smile
Then the world and it’s pains
Become like a drop in the Nile

When I’m with you
I can’t help but feel good
You’ve made me happy
Like no one else would

All I can offer
Are my words in return
And perhaps my warmth
for your cuddles I yearn

Honestly, I think I’m an average writer at best. People tell me that I’m good, whether it be at Poetry, Essays, Stories or otherwise but I just can’t seem to see what it is that makes me ‘good’.

All the money in the world
Cannot buy you love
Yet you levee your funds
And pray help from above

All the time in the world
Will not make you smile
So just relax a bit
You might be here a while

All the people in the world
Might not make you happy
But there’ll be a handful
Who’ll make it less crappy

All the gifts in the world
Will not make you warm
So find someone that will
Shelter you from the storm

All the lives in the world
Will not make you more wise
So wake the fuck up
and open your eyes

And so I know now
that you read of my pain
It’s written so plainly
And from it you gain

Through these words you see me
Scrubbed afresh and raw
I share myself completely
Displaying every flaw

I do not hold myself
in high regard
I know I’ve been beaten
and that I seem scarred

But in my life I’ve seen beauty
Even if sometimes through tears
And I’ve done much more learning
than a boy of my years

There is nothing more I can say
Naught more to explain
All I know is there’s beauty
in love, life and pain